Sept.14,15 (Cosmos Plan)
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"One step ahead" When a producer gave me an offer that I should work
with Manami Suzuki for her new video, frankly speaking,I had less interest on
it. In fact, I had worked with her (as a producer) twice before then. The contents
for one of the previous work "Privacy" was that a director Mr.Sun
Mastui who was crazy about her approched her with love as the theme in the video
but he was refused after all. I did not care if he was refused because she had
a right to consider if she accepted the director and her liking depended on
her. But the most important point is that she made a lot of complaint such as
;she said "I do not want to say it in front of camera", when I made
an interview on her. So, I felt that the work was very tough for me as making
staff (I was in charge of the camera man), and could not stop cowerring and
thinking that she would not accept my next interview. I had some hesitation
to work with her due to those experiences. But, please do not make misunderstanding!
So far, you may feel that Manami Suzuki is selfish and cruel to the staff, but
this is completely wrong. She had a reason for refusing the interview. I asked
her for some questions such as "you accept a real fuck for the scene from
this video,why?" She insisted what her fans would feel the previous videos
if she answered it and that this was not good to them. In addition, she disliked
artificial direction and insisited that the shooting should be proceeded naturally.
(I feel some inconsistency between the refuse for the interview regarding the
real fuck and natural shooting, but I will never mention it any more this time.)
Probably,she has a policy for works and must be serious. So, when my request
was refused, I felt hesitation instead of angry.
I, for one, have a hesitation to strat the shooting from zero, and have found my own theme. I think it is OK that the shooting starts with minus1 and finish with zero. I have decided my theme,i.e. how much can I approch her with staying naturally.
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On the first day, the shooting was proceeded in fuck scene with a director having
an experience as actor. I tried fuck scene with the director because she refused
it with Mr.Matsui in the "Privacy", but this time, the scene finished
without problem. When I asked mean question such as,"why did you accept
fuck with the director?" She answered," I am OK because he is not
a director this time."
On the 2nd day, I made some talks with her. Though I can not describe the contents in more details, I accept her with much comlex caused by her complicated family environment. I found that she experienced many kinds of thing beside the one as "Race queen". I tried to persuade her to do fuck with Mr. Matsui, but refused. Though she said OK at the advance meeting, she insisted that I could not do it with Mr.Matsui. She emphasized it with her eyes against my persistent request. It seemed that she could not accept Mr.Matsui physically. But this was natural reaction becase I did disliking things for her,and nothing were changed.
Though I thought that I made some progress, but no progress actually. But I had a comfortable feeling. No,I should have said my feeling was completely changed in spite of that the shooting was started with my hesitation. I have found that she was serious ,and have started feeling her cuteness. probably, other directors may approch to her like me,and feel her cuteness. After all, I could not go one step ahead and achieve zero as my target, but I do not care it due to her cuteness.